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THE ONE WHERE SHE WORRIED ABOUT HER WEIGHT IN 2nd GRADE

5/22/2021

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It was 2nd grade and we had a project for science. It was something about our bodies and we had a sheet to fill out where we measured our height and weight. While I don’t remember all the details, I do remember the strategy I used in picking my partner, and all the feelings that would follow.   I also remember wanting to literally run away from the class... I so desperately did not want to weigh myself.  

At this stage in my life weight wasn’t really relative to me, but I did know I was bigger than many of my classmates therefore assumed my weight would be much higher.  Except for one girl… Jackie… I picked her as my partner in this project because I thought for sure I wouldn't weigh more than her, or at least we’d be the same.  

It came time to step on the scale.  

She stepped on the scale first. Then, I stepped on the scale.  I remember my number was higher than hers and had three digits when hers only had two. 
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I was mortified.  I didn’t cry right there in that moment, but I remember it well.  I did go home and cry that night.  I cried and cried and cried. 

SECOND GRADE AND I CRIED ABOUT WHAT I WEIGHED. 

How sad is that? 

It’s sad, but it’s the truth. That moment forward shifted my focus towards all things weight and body image. As young as 2nd grade, I was so self conscious of the skin I lived in.  When my worries should have been about what books to read, how to stay King in 4-Square and what my favorite colors were... there I was thinking about being fat. 

This desire to help people feel good in their body didn’t just start in my adult life.  It’s been my life always. 

My mom tried her best to comfort me.  She really did.  But nothing could.  I was fat, and I hated it. 

Again, I remind you.... SECOND GRADE. 


My heart breaks for that little girl me.  It breaks for that little girl you.  It breaks for the little girls today. 

I’m also thankful for that little girl me, though.  It’s led me to this today.  It’s led me to being extremely intentional in the compliments I give my kids and other little kids.  It’s led me to knowing exactly how you feel.  It’s led me down some really ugly, ugly paths and also to some really amazing and beautiful ones.  It's led to me figuring out how to move my body in a way that feels good, and how to look at food as fuel. 

It’s led me to nourishing my body rather than filling it with junk. It has taught me about how to eat. It has shown me empathy.

That 100+ pound second grader isn’t a small part of me… she is me, the woman I am today.  But she’s stronger, happier & more accepting now.  She's wiser. 


I’ve been there.  I feel you.  I see you.  I know the heart inside of you is so much more beautiful and amazing than any numbers we see on a scale. YOU are amazing whether you’re 120 pounds or 320 pounds.  ​

​Journal questions: 
  1. Was there ever a part of you that you wanted someone else to be just a little bit worse at than you? Let’s dish. Talk about it.
  2. What are some areas in your life where you have always struggled? 
  3. What are the good things that have come from that? 


I'm here to help.  What is a mess you're hiding from? What is something you so badly want to be doing with your time, but feel pulled to be doing all the other things?  Let's talk.  Set up a free breakthrough session with me so we can help you start living fully alive once and for all! 
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"SHOULD" Depletes Our Energy

5/19/2021

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Should is a word in our vocabulary that's a hard one to knock.  It has likely influenced more in your life than you've ever realized.  

Should shows up in sneaky ways. 

Should creates judgement upon ourselves.  It's implies that we aren't ____ enough.  It implies that we need to improve ourselves and do better. 

You've been on the rat race of the things you "should" do and likely in doing so you are straying further and further from the YOU that needs to be amplified.  

You "shouldn't" do anything.  When you come to any circumstance with that thought it feels yucky.  "I should give write a thank you."  "I should give a gift." "I should eat healthier." "I should workout in the mornings."  Should, should, should. 

What if instead you replaced the word should with the words want, desire or need.  That carries much more personal power.  That carries so much greater energy. 

"I should write a Thank You." ----> "I want to express my gratitude."
"I should give a gift." ----> "I desire to make this person feel loved." 
"I should eat healthier" ----> "I desire to nourish my body in a way that feels good." 
"I should workout in the mornings." ----> "I desire to create energy in me through movement." 

Do you feel the difference? 

So, how do we take that a stop looking outward for "shoulds" in our life, and really become "me" amplified.  

1) Observe
First, observe when "should" comes up throughout your day, and investigate that neutrally. "I should lose some weight" is a thought that came from looking in the mirror.  What you saw in the mirror is cellulite on your legs.  What if instead you just WITNESSED that cellulite.  "I see you.  There you are.  And you mean nothing about me." 

2) Own
Own who you are.  Own those "flaws" you think about yourself. They mean nothing.  Rather they are a factor of what makes you you.  There is no love or hate within the owning... it just is.  For me, for example, I'm a little messy sometimes.  I procrastinate and wait until the last minute.  I have cellulite on my legs too.  

Great. Own that. Don't change that.  Own it and then dig deeper with it. 

3) Respect
Should makes us battle against ourselves.  Instead we want to respect the person we are.  Respect the body that has cellulite on it.  Respect yourself in the journey.  Respect your boundaries.  For the example in the video, I respect that I can't stay up past 8:00 to have a deep-life conversation.  Out of respect for myself with that, I set up my schedule accordingly.  With that personal respect, comes outward respect.  My husband knows and respects that about me.  

When we observe, own and respect things about ourselves, we are likely going to respect others as well. 

4) Embrace.  
My friend, that is YOU.  Embrace that shit.  Sometimes you get messy... how can you make that mess shine?  Sometimes you put things off to the last minute... how has that served you in the past? 

When we embrace who we are fully we shine, we become a magnet. 

You don't need to improve (see the word CHANGE) yourself.  Rather let's amplify ourselves. When you do so, your energy will be through the roof, and you'll be a magnet for others.  

Ready to fully embrace YOU and live life fully?  Reach out, and schedule a free 1:1 Breakthrough Session today! 
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"Kelly has been amazing to work with. When talking during our sessions, she has a way about her that makes you feel so comfortable, like you are talking to one of your closest friends. But she also has some tough love and asks some hard questions that can really push you to find your greatest potential. I also love the accountability she provides, but also the grace she reminds me to have with myself when struggles arise. I also appreciate the abundance of resources she has provided to me." - Leah
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THE ONE WHERE SHE LOVED ART CLASS

5/17/2021

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First grade, I remember it well.  I don’t remember our art teacher’s name but I know she was blonde, had glasses and was totally quirky.  

We had a project to do.  We had to make little piggy puppets for a Three Little Pigs puppet performance. 

There were some in the class that just weren’t that into it.  They hurried through the project and then messed around in the room, playing and getting into things.  Man, bless the heart of all those art teachers out here.   

But me?  Heck no.  I was lost in the creation of it.  He had blue denim overalls with yellow buttons, a plaid shirt and the cutest swirly tail.  While the rest of the class was all done, I worked on that little project up until the second the bell rang. Details, details, details… I made that piggy the best in class. 

Looking back on this now I see two things that really stick out:
1 ) Being a perfectionist.  I had to make it perfect.  So often we look at being a perfectionist as bad, but what if instead it was something that just is.  It's a thing about us.  We love getting lost in the details.

2) I loved to create. When I create I don’t care what else is going on around me. It becomes my obsession.  


That’s how I’ve always been… I get lost in putting things together with my hands.  I love a good project. I love a messy process knowing I can clean it all up in the end.  It never mattered to me how it got done… but the fact that I was making something all mine. 

It’s no wonder looking back that this is something I carry with me today-- making things.  I love it.  This is me.  This is who I am.   I'm a perfectionist with some things, and a total mess in the process.  You can create amazing things AND be messy.  This is who I help as a coach. 

I see you creators out there.  You love to make things, you want to share things with the world and you also wonder “who would want this?”  Trust me.  The world wants your gifts and talents.  Put them on full display and do so proudly.  Not only does the world want your gifts they also want YOU fully, not a watered-down version of you, but Y.O.U.  When you do what you love, you shine.... aside from the creations you create they want you, the creator.​


​Journal Prompt Questions
  1. If you could wake up one day and have the whole darn day to yourself, what would you do? 
  2. When you were little, what did you LOVE to do? 
  3. What sort of things do you get so lost in that you forget to eat or HATE that you have to stop to pee? 


**P.S. I'm here to help.  What is a mess you're hiding from? What is something you so badly want to be doing with your time, but feel pulled to be doing all the other things?  Let's talk.  Set up a free breakthrough session with me so we can help you start living fully alive once and for all! ​
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