In the last year or so I’ve dabbled with “sober curiosity.” In other words, I discovered why I drink when I do, that sometimes I really don’t feel like it, how much feels okay to consume and how often, and the things I do for the sake of “fitting in.”
I’m not 100% sober nor do I intend to declare that I will be.
I'd say more along the lines of 90% is.
What I am now is 100% in control of my choices.
Now when I have a glass of wine I have it because I WANT it, and not to go along with the crowd. I choose the WHOLE experience… not just the in-the-moment beverage, but all that I know comes along with choosing to drink or not drink.
I've also found, just like coffee, it's the first sip I love the most. And then the rest is extra. Knowing that has revealed to me it's not necessarily the alcohol I want to consume, but rather the flavor.
Last week I was an event with a networking happy hour to follow. Wine, cocktails & mashed potato bar (yess yumm!) to end the day.
Seeing the line to get the drinks paired with the 1.5 hours drive ahead of me only reinforced that I already felt like — to not drink. I just wasn't feelin' a glass of wine.
So I chose not to, and I comfortably socialized with those who were & were not choosing to have drinks.
It felt so good.
It FEELS so good to be in this place of “I can if I want to, but I don’t have to.”
Then, on my drive home my husband called - there was a toddler tumble down some steps, so straight to the ER I went to meet up with my crew. It was a scary call to get. Update: all is good— just extra precautions & peace of mind.
In that moment, sitting with my little lady waiting to get checked out I was so glad to feel clear. I felt grateful for choosing. I am fully taking the reigns in choosing how I want to experience life - the fun days and the unplanned crisis moments of life.
I won’t lie and say that it’s all been easy. There's been some denial on my path, as well as some really interesting patterns brought to life. It takes awareness and with that awareness comes work & intentionality.
I want to let you know that it’s okay to experiment. And it’s oh so freeing to remember there are always options - “I could but I don’t have to” has been my favorite sentence of 2023 & alcohol has been my biggest flex in practicing that.
Do you want to take back control of your decisions? I can help you with that. If I’ve navigated this with one of my favorite beverages - wine - then I’m confident we can help you with all that comes along your path, too.